Lusciously Secured
A Taurus New Moon Reflection
The feeling came into my body before I had words for it.
As a Taurus rising with a first house stellium, I have felt the ground beneath my feet shift, scatter, and disappear more times than I care to count over the last seven years. But something arrived with this New Moon that I have not felt in a long time, maybe ever in this way.
Groundedness.
Not the performance of it.
Not the affirmation of it.
The actual physical sensation of structure rising up through the soles of my feet, through my bones, into my spine. A new sense of standing upright. The tingling of blood running through my veins, sure of the direction in which it was pumping.
Everything in me said: relax. And maybe… just maybe… that was a very overworked nervous system taking its first full breath of fresh air. It is spring szn. MY SZN.
Hello!!!
The Seven Years
Uranus has been transiting Taurus for the last seven years. And for those of us with heavy Taurus placements, that has meant one thing: everything you thought was solid got questioned.
My Rising. My Sun. My Moon. My Venus.
All of it touched. All of it interrogated.
Emotionally unstable… Identity unstable… Personality unstable. Just a lot of unstableness. And as a Taurus, we are conditioned to see instability as wrong, as something to avoid, as a sign that something has gone terribly off course. But I want to offer a reframe.
Unstable is just another word for transformation.
Look at our axis sibling Scorpio, constantly in the cycle of birth, death, and rebirth. That is not dysfunction. That is devotion to becoming!! And with Uranus pulling Scorpio energy directly into my first house, and Pluto sitting in my seventh in my natal chart, there has been this constant pull. This constant unknowing.
Raw.
Self sacrificing.
Broken down to the bare bones.
Busted open to the white meat for it all to show…
Chiron in Aries didn't help. The wound of… I want to but I can't. Always desiring to move, to build, to become, but Uranus constantly questioning every brick, every brushstroke I had ever laid around my existence. Who am I? How do I show up? Is this really me? For seven years, those questions lived in my body like a low hum I could not turn off.
What's On The Other Side
Fast forward to now.
I know who I am.
There is no person who can walk into a room and hand me a version of myself and make me go… “oh yes, that's me!” I know exactly who I am. You can have your rendition. You can have your version. That is your business. None of mine.
I am Cia Goss.
A Divine Woman. A mother. A daughter. A wife. A sister. An artist. A somatic healing oracle. A friend…
And I get to show up as who I desire to be, not whatever box makes other people
comfortable. If I am an artist today, I am an artist today. If I am an author tomorrow, I am an author tomorrow. If I am a feral wild woman living on the edge all month long, then that is exactly who I am!
No apology. No explanation. No tussling.
This Is Not Just Mine
The Taurus new moon on May 16th was a reset for me, yes. But it was not mine alone to hold. Wherever Taurus lives in your natal chart, you have been in an unraveling for the last seven years. Every single one of us with a Taurus placement has had that sector of life shaken, questioned, stripped, and rebuilt from the ground up. Because that is what Uranus does. It liberates you from what you only thought was stable. And Taurus, at her core, is about the things that make life not just survivable but luscious.
Stability.
Security.
Foundation.
Money.
The material things we need and deserve.
The sensory experience of being alive in a body on this earth.
This New Moon in Taurus is saying: you are ready to receive.
Wherever that house sits in your chart, that is where your abundance is about to reign. That is where the foundation is now set. Ten toes down. Run forth with that.
For me it is the first house. Identity. Presence. The body. The self that walks into every room. And now I get to run with it… Confident. Stable. Secure in every message that moves from my mind up and out of my throat. Sometimes we just know. And that knowing, that is the gift. That is God placed directly inside you, saying: this time is different.
This time, my body understands. I’m in divine creation mode.
The Portal
So I did something about it.
As a Taurus Rising, Uranus has been sitting in my first house for seven years. Shaking my identity. Questioning everything. Uranus has moved into Gemini, which for me is my second house. This transit will revolutionize my second house of money, value, self-worth, and material security. This is not a small shift. This is Uranus saying… “The identity work is done. Now let's talk about that $BAG$!”
My Mercury is in Gemini sitting right there in that second house too. What the average person might call ideas, I am learning is something else entirely. It is an ongoing conversation between myself and The Divine. Every idea that drops into me is a seed. And no matter which one I choose to plant and nurture, it will absolutely blossom. Because that is what seeds do when they are tended with intention.
Speaking of seeds…I have spent the last four months getting deeply connected to the land where I live.
Learning to garden.
Learning to grow something from seed all the way through.
Learning how to create the perfect environment, the right soil, the rich nutrients, so that what is planted has everything it needs to become its best. In return, gardening has taught me this: sometimes you plant and nothing sprouts. And you just go right back and plant another. In doing so… you become one with the earth. You start speaking a different language, not only with The Divine, but with nature. You tend to write this frequency…
That is the energy I carried into this New Moon.
Spirit showed me that this szn is about me stepping forth.
Me being the leader.
Me sharing the message.
I moved on it faster than I typically move on ideas. I initially thought this was something to build in community with another, but Spirit redirected me clearly. This szn the true idea lives within me taking that rightful, secure place in knowing who I am and doing the thing.
May 16th, under the Taurus New Moon, I opened The Prosperity Portal. A nine month energetic container. Held in front of my grandmother's grand gold mirror. Her name is Johnny Frances Jones, Ibae. And this mirror has been in our family for four generations now. When I moved back to Charlotte five years ago, Spirit made sure it ended up in my possession. Because my grandmother knew. And I knew. Exactly what to do with it.
To venerate her.
To assist myself.
To elevate the bloodline.
Realign the entire family.
& bless the collective.
I may be the black sheep. I may not be in regular communication with my family members. But I love them deeply. And this is not about physical proximity or conditioning. This is about me coming here to do the work that needs to be done from my blood and theirs.
If you ask me, there is no better way to say I love you.
I used her mirror and made it a portal.
I know how my system is set up. I am a bull. We do not run alone. We ride in a
pack. My pack is riding with me spiritually and physically into this portal. Every woman threaded and tied to the benevolence and highest frequency of my journey. We are connected. We know our purpose. We know what we came here to do, and move accordingly. We know we are like no-one else.
Legit unicorns.
The portal is open. And there is a whole lot of abundance out here with your name on it. Insurance claim it. Call it in. Open yourself to receive it. Keep your mind's eye clear. Ask yourself every single day…
How can it get better than this?
Because it can. And it will.
This is the reason that the moment this New Moon arrived,
my nervous system took the deepest inhale it has taken in seven years.
And the loudest exhale I can ever remember.
A bad fucking witch bitch has arrived.
I'm here.
Now let’s get it!
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It’s like you were recapping my life…SHEESH! Such a beautiful read. 🙏🏾❤️
I see you!